Why hello there. Its late and I still hate my job

So, this is a normal post. It wont be a long one so no worries.

I miss AR like crazy. She has been gone about 2 months and I am really having a hard time without her. She is my everything. My support when I get down on myself. I dont have very good self confidence. And she always makes me feel good. I miss her sleeping in my bed. I miss hugging her and kissing her. I miss just randomly touching her throughout the day. I miss her making fun of me. I even miss her hyper off of coffee crazy little nights. I miss everything about her. I work a lot so that helps, but even at work, I still miss her like crazy. I do not sleep in the center of my bed. I do not sleep on her side of the bed. Since she has left, I still sleep on my side. Her 2 pillows take up her side of the bed. And thats the only way I can sleep. I even miss her ice cold feet. She always asks me if her feet are cold and then puts them on my legs. I miss that. Everything I miss. Sigh... I just want her to be back here with me.

So on to the hating my job part. I sell cars at a Chrysler Dealership. I went through a staffing agency that staffs car dealers to get that job. Took their online training and got hired. Well if anyone has been keeping up with the automotive world, they should know that Chrysler's sales have dropped more than the other American auto makers. The dealership has not made a profit in over a year. The customer traffic is horrid. We haven't sold one new car since monday. I cant believe that I would be placed at a dealership that has lost that much money. My direct manager is a dick. He is only there because his buddy is the General Sales Manager. He is pushy and pretty fucking unpleasant to be around. And an ass fuck to boot. He is the main reason I hate that place. The former owner used to piss me off but he got bought out by chrysler corp. Which makes me happy. I foresee this dealership getting shut down. I will have a new job by then anyways. But yea, I hate that place. Its on the edge of the ghetto. Our average credit score that comes through is a 400. The cheapest vehicle we have is 19k. We dont have any vehicle that gets 30 mpg. The closest is 27 from a jeep suv. Its embarrassing. Main reason why we dont sell any cars. Everyone is buying fuel efficient vehicles right now. we have about 40 chrysler 300's which start at 26k and get 25mpg highway. It is just poor planning by the dealership. I would have some of them but have more of the most fuel efficient vehicles that chrysler made. And they wonder why they cant sell cars.

So I am thinking about being an independent contract courier. Use my own car to deliver packages around the DFW area. Its either that or do security. I was wanting to not use my car to be a courier, but I might have to. I loved delivering pizza, and I love driving. So it seems like the perfect job for me. I have put in apps for some companies, but have not heard anything back yet.

Well thats about all of the update for me that I can think of right now. And this went longer than I thought. So thats all. I am going to try to get a couple reviews up on my review blog soon when I have the time.

Catching up on a shit load of WW

Wednesday Weirdness. Play with us, you know you want to.

WW #21

1.) If you caught your partner viewing porn online and masturbating, how would you react?
I would ask what she was watching and check it out and possibly have some sexy time together. :)

2.) If you caught your partner participating in a sex chat room online, how would you react?
That might irk me a little bit. Especially if it was with a dude. Now if its with girls, Im all cool. She can chat up the ladies all she wants.

3.) Did your parents know when you became sexually active? How did they find out?
Um, Nope haha. Umm... She just knew lol.

4.) How open were/are your parents about sex?
My mom is not at all lol. Well maybe a little tiny bit, but yea not really at all.

5.) When was the last time you had a splinter? What part of your body was it stuck in?
Hell I dont remember haha.

6.) If you could only bring back ONE extinct animal, what would it be and why?
Hmm, interesting. Im not sure, probably a stegosaurus.

Wednesday Weirdness #20: Weight Watchers

1. Are you happy with how much you weigh? Why or Why not?
Nope, not at all. Because im about 60 lbs over weight.

2. Have you ever been at a weight you are happy with?
Probably, but not in some years.

3. Are you currently on a diet now? If yes, describe.
Nope

4. What is the craziest thing you have ever done to lose weight?
I took hydroxycut when I was in HS. It worked, but yea, that wasnt good for me

5. What is your favorite thing about your body?
My large frame.
6. What is your least favorite thing about your body
My fat.

WW #19

1.) Someone dares you to eat two cooked bulls testicles for 1,500 dollars. They're fried, topped with nacho cheese, belly button lint, lima beans, sweat rung out from a dirty sock and maple syrup and you have to eat it all. Are you going to eat it for the cash or pass?
Nope, Im passing on that. Not just for 1500 bucks. Sweat from the sock killed it. I could do everything else. I might puke, but I prolly could. I have eaten some weird shit.

2.) If you were not getting enough sex in your relationship, how would you handle it? Would you cheat on your significant other?
Easy, just say "Baby, lets fuck" more. Nope not a cheater.

3.) Would you cheat if you knew you would never be caught? Why or why not?
How about hell no. Because I love my girlfriend with all of my heart.

4.) If you could get rid of any of the late night talk show hosts and replace them with anyone you want, what late night persona would you get rid of and who would you replace them with?
Carson Daily. His show is stupid as fuck. I would replace him with Adam Sandler.

5.) If you could get rid of one day time talk show, which one would you pick and why?
Any of them. Because I hate daytime talk shows.

6.) Where is your favorite places on the body to be kissed? Favorite places to kiss?
Anywhere, and anywhere again.

7.) Do you watch porn? How does your significant other feel about that?
Yea, a little. Especially now that she is out of state. She doesnt mind.

Wednesday Weirdness #18

1. How often do you talk to your siblings?
Meh, I might talk to my sister once a month or so.

2. How well do you deal when given an ultimatum?
Not well at all. I typically get pissed off at that.

3. Have you ever dated someone or had a lover who had an emotional or mental disorder?
Umm.. Yes. I dated a psychopath. Bitch stalked me for like 6 months after that. We only dated for a week.

4. How do you feel about crossdressing?
To each their own. It dont bother me.

5. Have you ever lied about the number of sexual partners you have had to someone? Why?
Nope. Because mine is low, and I dont care.

6. Does your significant other have the same political and religious views that you do? How often do you discuss politics and religion with them?
Im not very political. So we dont discuss that very much. Religious, we are similar. Im an athiest, and she is spiritual.

7. What sport, if any, do you find to be most boring?
Nascar. Im sorry, they may go fast, but nothing but left turns bores the crap outta me.

8. Have you ever honestly peed in the pool?
Yea, when I was little haha. Who didnt?


WW #17

1.) You just bought a snazzy new leather jacket for an awesome price at the local outlet shop. When you got it home you found $2000 (cash) in the jacket's inner pocket. What are you going to do?
I would call the store and ask if anyone has claimed they lost an amount of money to see if it was missing and to check if someone had bought that jacket before and returned it. Possibly give them my contact information if someone came in saying they lost that money so they could contact me. I would not disclose the amount though. Someone might say they lost it and really hadnt.

2.) If you could change or eliminate one wedding tradition, what would it be? What is your favorite wedding tradition?
Umm Churches lol. I dont really have a favorite tradition lol.

3.)If you were on Gilligan’s Island, who would you want to share your hut with? Who would you consider it torture to have to share a hut with?
I would probably enjoy sharing my hut with gilligan. And Mrs Howell or Ginger would annoy the fuck out of me.

4.) Have you ever called your current significant other by another name at any point? What happened?
Umm.. I might have on accident. She probably got upset and hit me or something. But I have never called her an ex's name or anything.

5.) If you were going to be famous under a stage name, what would you pick your stage name to be? Why? What do you want to be famous doing?
Um Long Dong Silver? Hell I dont know lol. I want to be famous for being an integral part of the Hot Rod world.

6.) During sex, do you ever fantasize about someone other than your partner?
Only if we are talking about and fantasizing about someone together.

7.) Which is worse, being in a place that is too loud, or too quiet?
too quiet.

Wednesday Weirdness #16


1. Is there anything hanging from your vehicle's rear view mirror?
Nope

2. When you go into the bathroom, do you ever check behind the shower curtain? You know, to make sure no one is miraculously hiding back there.
I have before

3. At what age did your mom or dad give you "the talk" about sex?
Never got one haha.

4. If you could add anything at all to an airplane to make trips more interesting, what would it be and why?
Umm, more interesting? ... Dancing midgets. That would be damn interesting.

5. What is one thing you and your significant other can never seem to agree on?
My awesomeness. I know there is something, but I cant remember.

6. Have you ever walked in on someone else having sex? How did you and the people involved react?
Nope, I dont think so. Everytime someone has had sex around me, its been them starting it while I was there. Like the time I fell asleep at my friends house with his girlfriend using me as a pillow to watch tv, I wake up to her shoulders going into my side becuse they were fucking on me.

7. Everyone hears discussions that they consider boring. What is one topic that can put you to sleep quicker than any other?
Umm.. Politics

Wednesday Weirdness, The Ex Files

1. When your relationships end, are you the instigator of the breakup or the recipient?
Eh, its been both.

2. Do you save things from your ex, or get rid of them? If you save them, how? If you trash them, how?
Eh, I saved stuff, but its always gotten rid of after I move on. I typically burn shit.

3. Describe your favorite ex?
My favorite ex? I guess you mean the ex that I like better than the others. Probably Kaysea, she didnt fuck me over and wasnt a psychopath. I broke up with her because I saw that relationship going nowhere and didnt want to drag it out.

4. Do you consider a friend's ex off limits?
Yea.

5. Have you ever had sex with an ex? Why?
Yea. Well because it was convenient.

6. If you had a choice between spending the rest of your life with your worst ex-boyfriend/ex-girlfriend, or your HS Nemisis, who would you choose?
Umm.. HS nemisis.. I dont even know who that was... Oh well there was this one kid... I would gladly take him over that psychopath bitch that I dated.

7. Would you ever create a YouTube video or a website celebrating your exes' flaws?
Haha No. That is pretty childish.

Wednesday Weirdness #14

1. Would you rather be 3 inches taller, or 3 inches shorter than you already are?
Neither? I like how tall I am. I dont wanna be 6'5" since thats not extremely tall, and I dont wanna be 6'11" since thats too tall. 6'8" is fine with me

2. What are 3 words that could never be used to describe you?
Short, well mannered, close minded

3. Have you ever eaten something at the grocery store while you were shopping, prior to buying it? Did you pay for it when you got to the check out line?
I think I did once. And yes I paid for it.

4. If you could have any 3 materialistic things in this world without paying a single cent for any of them, what would they be and why?
My dream house/Garage: becuse I gotta have some place to live and store my cars and they will be expensive, a Mclaren F1: because that is the most expensive car I want, a private jet: Because I really want a private jet.

5. Have you ever fallen asleep or nodded off during sex before?
Nope. I like sex. You cant nod off while having sex with AR lol, it feels too damn good.

6. What are 3 jobs you’d leave your current job for? If you don't have a current job, just list 3 jobs you would like to have.
Courier with paid company vehicle and fuel and cell phone and insurance, Some sort of role working with the Dallas Stars team, Owner of a Performance Parts shop.

7. Do you or have you ever answered the phone during sex?
Nope, sure as hell havent done that and never will. I dont even hear my phone going off when AR and I are fucking.

Fuck, I missed a lot of them bastard questions haha. but I caught up. Today was my day off. I slept and then Took an engine to a buddy of mine who wanted to buy it. Hung out at the body shop he works at with him and a couple more friends who showed up and then went and ate with them and came home. While we were there he fixed me up a paint sample for what Im going for with the Iroc. It looks perty. Now I just have to paint something with it and see how it looks. I think it needs to be darker. I dunno. Well I gotta work tomorrow at 11, so Im gonna take my ass to the shower and try to get some good sleep.

Holy crap, I didnt realize it had been this long

Well, I have been away for over a month. Well just absent from my blog. I finally got a job. I work for a Car Dealership selling cars. I spend roughly 50-70 hours a week at work. I typically work 12 hours a day, 5-6 days a week. So I have had a good reason to be gone. Im looking for a new job though. I hate this place. I could make good money making cars. But... Its a crappy dealership with no traffic. No salesman sells over 10 cars a month. Most dont even make the 8 they ask us to sell. I will never make really good money there. I know I cant put up with that place much longer. I hate the owner and my direct manager. They are ass fucks. I have made some ok money. Nothing special compared to what Im used to making at other jobs. I would rather work less and make the same about of money. They just implemented a strict dress code today. we were fine wearing polo shirts, khaki or black pants or shorts, and regular shoes. I wear a polo, khaki pants, and my black DC's. But now we have to wear a company polo, some kind of slacks, and dress shoes, or if no work polo, a long sleeve button up and tie. Unfortunately, They cant order works shirts in my size. I need a 4 x or a 3xT for the length.

Update: I started that post like 4 days ago. So yea, I had them order me a 3x to see if it will work. It will take 3 weeks to get here. Yay...I so wont work there then I hope. Im looking for new jobs right now. I just kinda hit a stalemate with all the job search places. Im looking on craigslist, Indeed, CareerBuilder. I hate monster, but I think im gonna go hop over on there and see what they have.

So... My life just clicked for me a few days ago. (backstory) I graduated HS and went immediately into a Technical College for automotive technology. I decided that I loved working on cars when I was in AutoTech in HS. I was going to be a mechanic and save up and open my own performance shop with a speed parts shop. You come buy my parts and Ill put them on and such. It was The DREAM for me. I was going to do full custom work as well. Swap new engines into old cars and what not. I was so happy about that. Its everything that I wanted. Perfection to me. Well... After I graduated from the technical college, I got a job as a mobile fleet technician. I worked there and loved it. Didnt even realize when I worked a 16 hour day. It was pure enjoyment. Working on cars was my Niche. I was at home.

Well.. I had a stroke at work one day after being there only 2 months. I lost 20% of the vision in my left peripheral vision. And add to that, I am now on blood thinners for the rest of my life. I cant work on cars anymore. Well professionally anyways. Im taking a risk doing it at home on my own cars. If I cut myself open bad enough, I wont stop bleeding. So I pushed that shop Idea out of my mind.

I dont like working for someone, I want to be my own boss. I want to make the rules and everything. So Im sure some of you know that I have had ideas about opeing a bar or something and other different businesses. Well those are all gone now. One of the Techs that works at the dealership is currently going to the technical college that I went to. He asked if I got my associates from them, and back then they didnt offer an associates program. Just a Certificate. I got 59.5 credit hours from that course. He informed me that they are now letting former students come back and get their associates. So I am going to be doing that as soon as I get all of the information and can do it.

AR asked me What I was going to do with that degree. I told her that I didnt know. And I didnt know which worried me. I still didnt know what I was going to do with my life. I have been thinking of what I can go back to school for and nothing really sparks my interest. It hit me the next day. I remembered my idea to open the performance shop. The main thing I remembered was the Speed parts shop. I can still do that. And I would love it. It has a chance to be profitable. I am so connected in the DFW car club scene, that I could get plenty of people in to buy. So instead of doing the installs myself, I would make a deal with other installers to install my customers parts. I send them customers if they give them a discount on labor. And then if they get customers that want things, they can buy their parts from me at a discounted rate. Its perfect in my mind. I already know of a transmission/driveline guy that would be down for that. It seems like this could work. Which makes me happy. Its not an idea that would make me rich or anything like my previous ideas. But... It will make a decent living and I would be happy. I love cars. So I will be going to college again after I finish my automotive associates degree for a bachelors in business administration. That should give me the credentials to apply for a loan. Everything makes sense now. Im happy!!!

AR is still out in CA, and Im trying to get one of us to the other one so we can see each other. Its been almost 2 months. I miss her terribly. I just gotta get some money together to be able to do that. We get to talk a little more now, but that is because i have gotten used to my schedule. But its still not enough. I wants her back home. Plain and simple.

Well I am gonna head out. Trying to get a friends daughters birthday thing set up. I dont wanna do it on sunday, so I talked him into doing it tonight. So yea haha. Ill prolly catch up on WW and Some TMI tonight. So expect a long ass post with nothing but those tonight. Hopefully anyways.